The Dark House Within: Rebuilding Your Identity After It Fractures

This week, I'm talking with Liam J. Wakefield, a psychotherapist, counseling lecturer, and former British Army soldier who's built his entire practice around a question most of us avoid: what happens when the person you were completely falls apart?

Liam lost his mother to abandonment as a child, went to war at 21, and was medically retired from the military after a chronic illness dismantled the identity he'd spent years building. He's faced grief not just from death, but from the loss of self: the fracturing that happens when the architecture of who you are can no longer hold.

What makes Liam's work different is that he doesn't see healing as putting yourself back together. He sees it as learning to hold the tension between all the fractured parts: the grieving child, the masked adult, the angry protector, the exhausted survivor. He calls it "the self as continually becoming," and it's completely changed how I think about rebuilding after loss.

We talk about the masks we wear to survive, the parts of ourselves we abandon to keep going, and why grief isn't something you get over. It's something you learn to carry differently. Liam also walks me through his "dark house within" practice, a tool he uses to help people visualize and navigate the psychological architecture they've built around their wounds.

This conversation is deep, honest, and deeply human. If you've ever felt like you've lost yourself in grief or in just trying to survive, this one will hit. We get into:

• the abandoned parts of ourselves we leave behind to survive
• what it means to fracture and why it's not the same as breaking
• the masks we wear and which "hands" are holding them up
• his journey from rock and roll to the military to psychotherapy
• why he believes suffering is an initiation into growth
• the "dark house within" exercise and how it maps your psyche
• how children experience grief when their needs aren't met
• why authenticity is impossible and why that's okay
• the parliament of parts inside all of us
• voice dialogue therapy and giving your inner conflicts a voice
• why time doesn't heal, it just gives perspective
• how to rebuild psychological architecture after it collapses
• what it means to become "more than you ever felt possible"

Liam's story is a reminder that you're not broken just because you're in pieces. Sometimes the fractures are where the growth happens.

🌐 Learn more about Liam's work: https://liamjwakefield.com
📸 Follow Liam on Instagram: @liamjwakefield
📰 Read Liam's articles in Hinton Magazine

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The Carried Forward Podcast is hosted by Robert DelFave, grief coach, David Kessler Certified Grief Educator, and author of The Other Side of This.