King Baby: The Ego Underneath Addiction
My real problem was never the drugs or alcohol. It was King Baby — the toddler ego running my life.In 2015, in treatment at Hazelden, I read a little pamphlet by Tom Cunningham called King Baby. It re...
8 Sep 16min
Anxiety in Sobriety: Why It Spikes and What Actually Helps
Nobody warns you sobriety can make anxiety louder, not quieter — here's why, and what actually helps.When you put down the drink or the drug, the anxiety you were medicating doesn't vanish. It gets un...
5 Sep 17min
The Habits That Got Me to 1 Year Sober
Willpower won't keep you sober — it's a battery, and it drains. In this solo episode of Recovering Out Loud, Anthony makes the case that year one isn't about white-knuckling, it's about building: cons...
3 Sep 15min
Perfectionism Is a Relapse Risk — Progress, Not Perfection
Perfectionism isn't a personality quirk — it's a documented relapse risk, and it doesn't switch off just because you got sober. In this solo episode of Recovering Out Loud, Anthony unpacks how the sam...
1 Sep 21min
Trauma & Addiction: Gabor Maté & The Body Keeps the Score (An Honest Take)
Why the pain, not why the addiction? An honest, peer look at the trauma model of recovery.This week it's a solo one. I sit with two thinkers who reshaped how we talk about addiction — Gabor Maté (In t...
29 Aug 10min
Surrender in Addiction vs in Recovery — Why Letting Go Isn't Giving Up
Surrender sounded like giving up — until it became the thing that finally let me stop losing.For years I thought surrender meant waving the white flag: defeat, quitting, rolling over. My ego hated it....
27 Aug 15min
10 Things Alcoholics Do That Normal Drinkers Don't
Ten things I thought were normal until I got sober — supply math, pre-gaming, the morning panic. I'm not a doctor. I'm just a guy who did all ten of these, and didn't realize nobody else was living li...
22 Aug 19min
