King Baby: The Ego Underneath Addiction
My real problem was never the drugs or alcohol. It was King Baby — the toddler ego running my life.In 2015, in treatment at Hazelden, I read a little pamphlet by Tom Cunningham called King Baby. It re...
8 Sep 16min
Anxiety in Sobriety: Why It Spikes and What Actually Helps
Nobody warns you sobriety can make anxiety louder, not quieter — here's why, and what actually helps.When you put down the drink or the drug, the anxiety you were medicating doesn't vanish. It gets un...
5 Sep 17min
The Habits That Got Me to 1 Year Sober
Willpower won't keep you sober — it's a battery, and it drains. In this solo episode of Recovering Out Loud, Anthony makes the case that year one isn't about white-knuckling, it's about building: cons...
3 Sep 15min
Perfectionism Is a Relapse Risk — Progress, Not Perfection
Perfectionism isn't a personality quirk — it's a documented relapse risk, and it doesn't switch off just because you got sober. In this solo episode of Recovering Out Loud, Anthony unpacks how the sam...
1 Sep 21min
Trauma & Addiction: Gabor Maté & The Body Keeps the Score (An Honest Take)
Why the pain, not why the addiction? An honest, peer look at the trauma model of recovery.This week it's a solo one. I sit with two thinkers who reshaped how we talk about addiction — Gabor Maté (In t...
29 Aug 10min
Surrender in Addiction vs in Recovery — Why Letting Go Isn't Giving Up
Surrender sounded like giving up — until it became the thing that finally let me stop losing.For years I thought surrender meant waving the white flag: defeat, quitting, rolling over. My ego hated it....
27 Aug 15min
The 12 Principles That Actually Keep You Sober
Working the steps gets you sober. Living the principles keeps you there. All 12 — and why they hold.My mentor asks me one question: "How are you living today, Anthony?" It's easy to be a star in the r...
25 Aug 26min
10 Things Alcoholics Do That Normal Drinkers Don't
Ten things I thought were normal until I got sober — supply math, pre-gaming, the morning panic. I'm not a doctor. I'm just a guy who did all ten of these, and didn't realize nobody else was living li...
22 Aug 19min
