Recovering Out Loud30 Sep 2025

From Cocaine Psychosis to Cooking on Live TV : Chef Devan

I say down with Chef Devan...

Driven by his desire and ambition to be the best in the business, Guyanese, Canadian Chef Devan Rajkumar (aka Chef Dev) has no boundaries when it comes to culinary exploration.

Chef Devan Rajkumar is on a mission to create food worth sharing that modernizes the craft, traditions and tastes of East and West Indian cuisines.

Whether that means owning the role of food expert on Cityline, traveling abroad to gain more experience and share his craft, appearing as a judge on Food Network Canada’s Fire Masters, developing signature soups with Mema Foods International or hosting pop-ups with chef peers both local and internationally on any given day.

This episode dives deep into the raw truths of addiction, relapse, and the ongoing journey of recovery. From finding podcasting as a lifeline in rehab, to rediscovering humility, service, and purpose, we explore how sobriety isn’t just about abstaining—it’s about learning how to live again.

You’ll hear powerful stories about:

Relapsing after 8 years and starting over
Wearing the “mask” and hiding behind ego
Functional alcoholism and the danger of high performance in addiction
How addiction stripped away passion—and how recovery brought it back
Why humility, service, and honesty are the keys to lasting change

If you’re looking for hope, tools, and real conversations about recovery, addiction, and mental health, this episode will resonate.

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